I HATE doctors
Spent the whole day in the surgery which wasn’t much fun.
Apparently I might be going deaf. I went to the doctors a couple of weeks ago because my hearing was a bit muffled and I thought I had an ear infection but she said no. so I’m ment to be going for a hearing test. But today I went back to the doctors because I have a lump in my ear and she had a look at it and the bitch dug her finger nail in it and made it bleed. So my ear is now fucking killing me and she gave me antibiotics because apparently I have developed a fucking infection.
Confused
Your not the only one
So yeah I may be losing my hearing at the age of 16.
And I’ve got to go see another doctor soon because they think I have depression so they told me to go home and then in a couple of weeks I have to go back and they will have a talk with my parents.
Am I missing something here or am I 16 now? My parents have no right talking to my doctor with out my permission so they can go screw themselves if they think I’m turning up for that appointment.
I’ve done the whole therapy thing, didn't like it that much. So I pissed off the therapist so much she gave up and told my parents I was fine.
So that’s my life atm, filled with medication, doctor visits and therapy.
Sound fun to you?
Onyx
xoxo
Monday, 22 June 2009
Monday, 15 June 2009
another rant :P
Hey
Aint written in here in a while, it’s been a bit mental lately.
I’m just finishing my gcse’s so been busy revising for them (yeah right :P).
But they have been stressing me out, It’s like you cant win.
You do shit at them and I’m a stupid little shit. You do good in them and the exams ‘must be getting easier’ so I’m still a stupid little shit. I think we should get the people that say they are getting easier and make them sit them, see how well they do.
It’s the same every where tho aint it. You look in the news paper or on the tv and EVERY teenager is a knife/gun carrier who sleeps with everything with a pulse, gets pissed every night, fails at school and is an arrogant fucker who doesn’t give a shit about anything.
Yeah, some of us are like that, but most of us are quite good people.
I’m fed up with walking down the street and having people cross over the road and looking at you like you’re a fucking terrorist.
But then again it doesn’t help when that small minority of teens that are everything I said about make it blatantly obvious. Forming stupid little stereotype gangs, and abusing anyone who is different. Walking down the street and I get called a ‘fucking mosher’ and saying ‘do you want to have a go you fucking emo’.
‘nah, tbh it wouldn’t be a fair fight, a 18 year old boy against me, a 16 year old girl. I could probably beat the shit out of you before you could blink love.’
All talk and no action, pathetic little boys who think carrying round knife and guns suddenly makes them a man.
It aint big
It aint clever
And it certainly aint hard people
It just means you to weak to sort things out with out them.
Ahem =/ excuse my rant but it had to be said.
Anyways lol. Back to where we started. It’s been mad round here lately. had and argument with mother and father and left home, just for a day so that I didn't say something I regretted. All I said was that I was going out for fresh air. I had been looking after my sisters three kids all morning while TRYING to revise and make everyone breakfast. So when my mum got back from the shops I asked if she could look after them for half hour while I get some fresh air, but no. apparently I agreed to look after them so they were my responsibility. The fact that I didn't agree with anything and I woke up in the morning to find the kids wrecking the living room. So I waited till my sister picked them up and went to leave the house and mum started having a go again so I just walked out. Stayed at a mates over night then went back the night after. Nothings changed, they grounded me then just carried on like nothing happened.
I swear as soon as I get the money, I’m off.
And last of all, there may be a new boy on the scene. Well not really new, I’ve known him for ages, he’s like one of my best mates, but I dunno he seems to be there for me.
It’s hard tho. I keep feeling as tho I’m cheating on Da.
And another bad point, he has a girlfriend. She’s a really air head Barbie bitch type. I used to think she had a personality under the makeup some where but nope, she just a shallow little bitch deep down to. and he knows it. every time people see us together they ask if we’re a couple because we’re that close. But nothings going to happen
For sooo many reasons.
Thanks for reading
Onyx
xoxo
Aint written in here in a while, it’s been a bit mental lately.
I’m just finishing my gcse’s so been busy revising for them (yeah right :P).
But they have been stressing me out, It’s like you cant win.
You do shit at them and I’m a stupid little shit. You do good in them and the exams ‘must be getting easier’ so I’m still a stupid little shit. I think we should get the people that say they are getting easier and make them sit them, see how well they do.
It’s the same every where tho aint it. You look in the news paper or on the tv and EVERY teenager is a knife/gun carrier who sleeps with everything with a pulse, gets pissed every night, fails at school and is an arrogant fucker who doesn’t give a shit about anything.
Yeah, some of us are like that, but most of us are quite good people.
I’m fed up with walking down the street and having people cross over the road and looking at you like you’re a fucking terrorist.
But then again it doesn’t help when that small minority of teens that are everything I said about make it blatantly obvious. Forming stupid little stereotype gangs, and abusing anyone who is different. Walking down the street and I get called a ‘fucking mosher’ and saying ‘do you want to have a go you fucking emo’.
‘nah, tbh it wouldn’t be a fair fight, a 18 year old boy against me, a 16 year old girl. I could probably beat the shit out of you before you could blink love.’
All talk and no action, pathetic little boys who think carrying round knife and guns suddenly makes them a man.
It aint big
It aint clever
And it certainly aint hard people
It just means you to weak to sort things out with out them.
Ahem =/ excuse my rant but it had to be said.
Anyways lol. Back to where we started. It’s been mad round here lately. had and argument with mother and father and left home, just for a day so that I didn't say something I regretted. All I said was that I was going out for fresh air. I had been looking after my sisters three kids all morning while TRYING to revise and make everyone breakfast. So when my mum got back from the shops I asked if she could look after them for half hour while I get some fresh air, but no. apparently I agreed to look after them so they were my responsibility. The fact that I didn't agree with anything and I woke up in the morning to find the kids wrecking the living room. So I waited till my sister picked them up and went to leave the house and mum started having a go again so I just walked out. Stayed at a mates over night then went back the night after. Nothings changed, they grounded me then just carried on like nothing happened.
I swear as soon as I get the money, I’m off.
And last of all, there may be a new boy on the scene. Well not really new, I’ve known him for ages, he’s like one of my best mates, but I dunno he seems to be there for me.
It’s hard tho. I keep feeling as tho I’m cheating on Da.
And another bad point, he has a girlfriend. She’s a really air head Barbie bitch type. I used to think she had a personality under the makeup some where but nope, she just a shallow little bitch deep down to. and he knows it. every time people see us together they ask if we’re a couple because we’re that close. But nothings going to happen
For sooo many reasons.
Thanks for reading
Onyx
xoxo
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